Will-o-the Wisp

It's been a while, I know. I seem to be on Alaskan solar time here, which the rest of the world does not for whatever reason align with. Much has happened but not much of great interest. I have decided to go the day without phone contact to make it feel more like a holiday. The weekend was spent well playing games. And now a friend is in a rough place by unexpected means, the ghosts of the past rarely bring good omens, and their shadows stretch long across our lighted days. I am still running, still chasing, ever and ever, but the light that I follow may be but my old friend Will. I have once again begun writing, and it comes well, but much will be needed to finish the book.

Tomorrow begins the school year, and too, my second semester of substitute teaching. I hope to have work and good kids like the last one, but will sorely miss my friends now gone. So here is to the future, for us all, may it burn bright and colorful!

Addendum:

My blood-pressure has been above normal again recently. I'll plan to rest more and stay up less and blah blah blah. I can tell because my cauterized nose will burst into a bloody mess when it gets too high. But enough of me (for the moment), time to reflect on you. What is that one thing that is just out of your reach, but has always been? I wrote this post with the name in mind (as always) because it is worth reflecting on. Knowing one's self is important, even more so to know your weaknesses than to know your strengths. For by knowing your weaknesses you may guard against catastrophic personally generated failure and oversight. Will-o-the Wisp was a thing that would often lure people off of paths, consequently getting them lost, injured or killed. Sometimes they lead to treasure and good things, but much like leprechauns, they were rarely caught. As I have been failing for years, I know one of my greatest delusions of reality is the romantic relationship. I must know this and be weary as to not let it ruin me, a thing that always seems within reach, but can never truly be grasped, such things will destroy. They will destroy because they are so deceptively conquerable and within reach, but like a mirage, will mislead our senses into believing we are doing well, when in fact we are in deep trouble...