Big News Everyone!

The new and exciting things that are happening in my life are in fact not big or new! As usual I have made a fool of myself romantically for someone who did not show clear signs until it was too late. I hit the brick wall going full speed and have only to chalk in another tally mark for my failures while at college. I think that makes... something like 17 or so. Its sad really, I keep this running tally so that if ever any of my past potentials happen to come back and desire a relationship I can politely give them the same opportunities that they provided me... that is to ask them that if I was not worth their time, why should they now be worth mine? I know there is a plan though so it is in fact a good thing that this time I hit the wall so fast (I once chased a girl for a whole year... it ended with her father lying to me about something he had for me then candidly taking me aside and asking me to never speak with her again... yeah that was a good day. And get this, the girl herself never once to my face expressed negativity towards me.). People need to make their intentions clear and then live by them. If you say that you want people to ask you questions, then don't be surprised when they do. If you spend time with agreeable people they may in fact try and spend time with you. And if you call on people for help, do not be shocked when they return the favor. Somehow these simple rules seem to have been lost along the way. Granted I'm in a bitter huff right now but seriously, My actions are not illogical and do in fact follow a rather simple and straightforward pattern. I guess I can only pray that I am not as blind or hypocritical as other people and then that if I am it wont go to my head. I mean seriously, isn't the phrase "First do no harm" there is a reason that such a thing is supposed to be followed. But alas, I suppose it is too much to hope for a maiden who understands the old way of things and that A. nothing is free B. everyone deserves a chance C. a person's words and actions DO IN FACT have meaning and should not be treated lightly and D. people are stupid, they always have been stupid, they always will be stupid and because of that everyone needs a little leeway from time to time to make mistakes. I only add in the last one because I have had my ear full of people complaining about stupid little things that really do not matter, and how these things seem to be given the power to actually effect how people care about other people... Are we hopeless as a species? I would like to hope not, but as of right now all signs point to yes... And yes, because I got shot down I did just blame all of mankind for it, so nah-nah nah-nah nah nah!