... Now while hanging out with friends recently someone mentioned fording a river, which lead to a conversation about dysentery... Now would it be too vein of me to assume that this means that people actually read my blog? The idea that a person would willingly choose to allow themselves to be assaulted by such rampant misuse of language, thought, and public hosting space, confounds and amazes me. What I have to say really is not that interesting, informing, or true... most of the time. But those of you who do read and choose to remember rather than immediately erase what you have read I thank you... and recommend you get your head examined... but I'll even offer to drive you to your new home. You know, that place where they give you free meals, nice clean white suits and padded walls in case you decide to sleep vertically. They really are nice, sometimes I feel like I live there, and the people really are something else. If you are looking for an escape from the drudge and dirge of normal everyday life filled with normal everyday people, I highly recommend a vacation to this place. If nothing else, it is anything but normal...
But getting back to our regularly scheduled program, life and all its intricacies. In the past few days I have applied to three different job positions within the game industry. Two of them would take me away from my safe haven of crazyville usa and move me to the center of upper-coldboringtown usa. I'm not sure that I'm emotionally prepared to leave, but these jobs are the ones I dream of, so I shall pursue it. The jobs I applied for are those of Q.A. tester (guy who plays games all day), Lead content designer (story and quest guy) and system designer (math and number system guy). I have worked with all of these in the past in an unofficial capacity, but this time it's for real (hopefully).
Now moving forward to the past, something came to mind recently, namely my personal problems with worth and being good enough. I think that these stem from a specific event or chain of events in my life and believe that as I normally do, can bend the rules to validate my way of life (not that I need it, I personally am reasonably fine with who I am). But some of the things that have been asked of me are that I A. be part of a sports team. Well, to answer to this, for the past three years I have trained professionally under world champion trainers in various Martial Arts, and am a member of the local college MMA (mixed martial arts) team. So it's not a sports team, its not a team game, but it is athletic and physical. B. I have been asked to be a leader in some fashion. Well, I have trained a total of seven people in audio technical operations, but also (as a counter point and not a boastful pedestal) I have a strong group of fellowship friends from campus who look up to me and seek my guidance. This, like the last point, is not an official capacity, has no money, fame, or man made glory attached to it like being a captain of a football team would, but it still exists and is quite real. So for right now there is my section on self validation. A note for the readers, if live tells you that you are not good enough, tell it to play by your rules and find a way to beat it at its own game.
To conclude let me thank the loyal readers that I have. I was surprised today to find that someone I do not know well (shout out to J.B.) reads this regularly. Thank you (TELL YOUR FRIENDS!!!). This just proves that somehow this blog can reach beyond what my physical time at school could bring.
So to finish off the night I went with a friend to the movies... after the movies closed... it was great. Basically I know a few guys who work there, so after the theater closes, its free watch whatever on the big screen time... not always, or that often, but sometimes. So we watched "Role models" not a bad movie, a reasonably high level of language and some nudity, but not a bad movie.
Well, I'm done for the night. Thank you
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