I forget who I was talking to the other day, but they began to diagnose me. They stated that I may have some form of closet OCD with extensions into the areas of neatness, order, and cleanliness. They went on to say that this behavioral quality of mine may explain how I am socially awkward and who I make friends with. I find most of this laughable as A. my room is the best example of how neatness, and order are not overrun by an obsessive compulsion for me, B. I believe dirt is good for you, but just not that one should wear it around in public, C. people suck, and only those who prove themselves worthy of my time by tolerating my being a pretentious intellectual jerk and all around good at everything. Rather, a self diagnosis would find that though perhaps a small amount of OCD may exist, it is not my main problem. The INTJ in me gets stronger every year, as does my aversion to ignorance, rigid authority, and pointless social rituals. I will admit a slight degree of misanthropy, coupled with a rogue devil's advocate way of analyzing things and people, but there is nothing wrong with asking why and why not. Or in pushing a person 'till they break to see if they have a spine. Growth comes through change, and learning through pain. Now that I think about it I believe it was the wolf who told me these things...
Later this week I'll be picking up reference letters and fighting with the county about getting an early start. See, I am a specialist on the area in which I will be teaching, and also have been specifically requested as such. It's gonna be good to go in there and throw down rank as I show that I can break the system even before learning how to exploit it from within... Or have I already done that... It matters not. In the mean time I must get more writing done. The editing process is catching up with the story progression and development, so soon it will be half done or so. I still need to work out the specifics of the deal with my illustrator, and all the online info I can find is stupid, either requiring a subscription or some other B.S.
Also I have now almost fully patched things up with my church, and have mostly returned. This is in reference to... well... the decision I made to be willing to do anything I could for another person, and I needed a good serious way to start. So that's almost fixed, it's a bit awkward, but I'm back.
Well, I'll catch you ladies and gents on the flip side.
Post Scribit: Maybe this could be my theme song... Here's the context... I'll keep looking.
... and for those of you keeping score at home...
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