Dave for Dummies

It comes to my attention that many of you may not fully understand who I am and how I work. Herein will be a short guide to understanding me (as if such a thing were possible). To start with I am an INTJ according to Myers Briggs. This means that I have some distinct personality features, as according to them, in your life you meet my type less than once out of every hundred people you meet. It means that I am the strategist, you can be sure that I have throughly over-analyzed everything I am doing, have done, and will do, and should any of those fail I have multiple contingencies to fall back on. I am bullheaded and believe myself to be right... roughly 95% of the time. I find everything interesting except that which is not worth my time. I am a closet perfectionist, but you may never guess it by how I live. I studied folklore and literature in school because people are what I do not understand. I care little for flirting, formal dating, or other social formalities which I do not understand and see as a waste of time. I get more amusement out of a well structured argument than an attempt at flirting. But since I like to study people, I love to mess with them, this means a particular attention to the difference between lies and truth. If you are my friend, consider yourself lucky, there are many I do not associate with by choice and if you are a part of my life then I feel you contribute to my betterment in some way. I love puzzles and thinking outside of the box, and better than both are figuring out people who are like puzzles with no defined rule set of solutions. I do believe authority and rules have a purpose, but many times I feel that I do not apply or that the established authority is not deserving of their position and thus does not matter. I slack in my own work, yet give everything my greatest effort, if you can't keep up I'll leave you behind. If you choose to slack and then fail to produce an "A" or "B" worthy result, your obviously doing it wrong and only have one more chance to prove your worth to me. People should make sense, they don't have to as chaos is refreshing from time to time as a distraction or deviation, but for the most part causality must be the rule of life. If I feel you need to hear it, I will tell you exactly how and what I think and feel about you even if it will crush your hopes and dreams... it's for your betterment, and I'd expect you to do the same to me.

And there you have it, it sounds cold, and it is, only the closest see this at all in me. I do a good job of hiding it beneath a surface of gentle observation and quiet repose. My mind is always working and my heart never stops, if only the two could make sense of each other...

Why life why?

I write this to help people better know me. "Why would someone want to? You're a jerk!" some may think, and I agree with them, but I am sure there are some poor lost souls who like me wish to understand the "why." Additionally I write this so that it is accessible to the public for reasons of my contingency planning. You see, Life as she does, has laughed at my feeble attempts to control her. Last time I wrote about writing off my pursuit of girls for a time. Well, of course it is when you stop looking that fate finds a way. I may have a blind date coming up with another medievalist, but although I accept them, I do not trust in blind dates. This may have to do with how I have been stood up on nearly half of the blind dates I have ever been on. Or it may have to do with the fact that every one where the other person showed up I found them to be quite boring and I think only once did a blind date have a second try. Don't get me wrong, I have only been on something like six, but it wears at me. I will embrace what comes and try not to be the cynical jerk that I show as my first face (I find that the first meeting is the time of the test, if I show my worst, most caustic judgmental reclusive side, and the person is up for still getting to know me, then I can be nice and start to show them the wonder of who I am. A harsh tactic that has probably cut me off from many nice women, but I would rather only waste one day on a person who will not choose to deal with me on my worst, than weeks or months).

So there you have it. That's a snapshot of me but by no means encapsulates who I am. Take to heart that I chose to get a degree in english. Now know this, I am dyslexic, cannot spell and never learned how, hate to read and cannot write any neater than a second grader. Math and science are easy for me. I do what I choose to do because I can and because I can both succeed and excel. I desire Tae-guk I seek completion, I can...