Ghostescence

As the title suggests, I am becoming a ghost to many of you. It's not intentional, my detachment is a natural response to my feeling generally useless to the world as after over 20 job applications to jobs that I am fully or even over-qualified for, NO ONE HAS RESPONDED. This does, however, give me the time to waste doing stuff like writing blogs and sleeping, two very useful and productive activities... oh yes and apply for jobs. But I have been doing much thinking recently on my womanage problems and I think I have come to a grand and publication worthy conclusion.

-Speaking a different language with the same words-

I believe (because I have tried every "type" of woman) that my getting rejected and stood up often (weekly to monthly, depends on how brave I feel) is not due to me choosing and chasing the wrong type of woman (as many friends have speculated) but rather because I have been speaking in a foreign language with common words. See, I'm looking for a simple relationship, something like friendship. A person who I can hang out with and talk to. Maybe someone I can eat out with once and a while. Mainly, someone I can get to know. Granted my hopes are that I will get to like this person and they will care about me and it would lead to a romantic relationship with the end goal of marriage. But its the means that I am screwing up. I think that when I ask "Would you be interested on going on a date" they hear "would you like to get the same crap from me you get from other guys who just want you for your body and will try to take advantage of you on your third date" which is entirely not where I'm going. I need a new set of words I think. Something that expresses that I seek something like a close friendship with a female, but A. not sounding that stupid and B. having it happen in such a way that they don't just up and date some other guy while I am getting to know them. I don't know, its just my latest theory.

Words of wisdom for the week: "Knowing is half the battle... the other half is violence." - Adam

I notice that the wall of soda cans grows ever taller around my computer. Soon I will be fully fortified from frontal assault by means of infantry. Odd too, because I've been cutting down on my soda consumption. I guess I've also been cutting down on my soda can disposal routine.

Take it easy guys,
-Super Dave
(my secret alternate bowling identity)