Sweet, a fourth e-harmony message, and it follows the trend "this user has requested that communication between you two be permanently closed. reason: other" Well, maybe we should all start taking bets on how many of these rejections I'll get before someone sends a non-rejection letter...
I just finished watching Van Wilder, and what can I say but, "Ahhh the memories." Granted I didn't stay in college for seven years, but I certainly had a good run, and now it's time for the real world. I hope that in the same way, I left behind friends and colleagues, family and friends, friends and acquaintances and classmates. Taking stock of the past, it was good. It makes me realize that there is a major distinction between those who choose to follow, because it is safe, it is predictable and it is easy, and those who choose to make their own way. I beg of you, find your own way home.
I had a good conversation with a friend recently about the "law of conservation of ninjitsu" and we have discussed going in co-authorship style... It could be good, speaking of which I need to get off my lazy ass and finish that kid's book.
I have been doing a great deal of soul searching recently. And I can't say its not painful. Making decisions about the future automatically means having to choose what friends you will be able to see, and those you won't. I'm beginning to seriously consider a teaching career, maybe private school first to get my certificate... I have a job waiting for me in that sector... Maybe I'll give it a shot. Though, I'll keep aiming for a job in the game industry as has been my true dream. My most recent plot (haven't gotten a restraining order yet *keeps fingers crossed*) is to email around a resume and cover letter for the job of "random do-anything-that-needs-doing intern" and see if I get a response. No, you're right, this is not a job that any company has open, but I figure appealing to their sense of humor may be a new angle. I mean hey, it's me ',:D seriously, I can't just fall in line and do things the way others do, that would be... well sickening to start, but boring to finish.
My heart goes out today to all of those who have lost their job to the economy. It really hasn't yet affected northern virginia much as this place has a major gov't backing, but it's starting to hit closer to home. Let it be known that if I can do anything, I will.
Well, all this soul searching has been making me sick, but I'm feeling kinda good too... Kinda like this (parental advisory: this video may be inappropriate for children). I guess the worst part about taking stock of myself, is seeing the areas of my life that I am wasting myself on and the things I am failing at for what they really are, and then realizing I need to do something about them. That means changing, in some places trying again and in others tearing it all down and then deciding if I should start again. Some of the most painful choices to make are those where I realize that maybe there is nothing left or worth salvaging, and it all must go. This sounds lighthearted, but I'm talking about me, you know, the person I care most about (lies). It's been a hard... well not summer any more now that I'm out of college, but we'll say break so I don't feel like I'm a huge bum and slacker, I'll just blame it on the economy... that's it, the economy... Funny how being surrounded by death and loss for a time makes you look back. I wish I could say I don't have regrets. But to tie things up in a circular fashion:
Van: "You shouldn't take life too seriously. You'll never get out alive."
... now I need to go to bed so in the morning I can make my brother lunch and get him off to school. (posted at 3:11 am)
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